Thursday, February 21, 2008

Happy Birthday, up there

Melissa Ann, where should I start? At the end? At the beginning? Does it really matter, nope..


This is a photo of my very VERY best friend, first cousin and a really big part of me that is gone, forever.

The last day I saw her was September 29th 2001, her 2 children in tow. She was leaving the shop and just as she did everyday, said she would see me later..Later...
My girl, died Sunday September 30th 2001 in the morning, from a blood clot to her heart.
She was 36. She just dropped dead on her kitchen floor. She had, just 3 months prior, given birth to her beautiful baby girl Erin. Also at home was her little twin-look alike son Ty, who had just turned 2.
So, shes gone, left me standing here. All alone, without her.. I know shes not coming back, I just wish I could talk to her once in a while. See those big dark brown eyes, her wonderful full pouty lips. I can still see her face like it was yesterday. I miss her so much. Im just so sure that she misses me too. So full of factual advice, her contageous laughter, her dry dry sense of humor, her love of life. Her big bossy ways.
God, well, I really get pissed at him when I think about it. What was he thinking? Really, She has 2 small small children, and a hubby, just beside himself. Not to mention ALL that loved her dearly. Not to mention ME! I am so selfish, I want her back for me.
Today is your birthday, my best friend, gone to, well, I really dont know. All I know is that there isnt a day that goes by that I dont think about you and wonder how I am going to get along another day, another year, the rest of my life.. without hearing your voice, or seeing your face.
I miss you :(
xoxoxo
your best friend, 4ever-
Lisa

13 comments:

Sarah said...

Wow... Wow. What a horrible thing... 36? Even worse when there are little babies left behind. I'm sorry you lost your good friend Lisa. What a great tribute you just wrote her.

Hugs,

Sarah

Jenn and Jacqui said...

Hi Lisa, we are so sorry you lost someone so special to you, that is so hard. A beautiful heart felt tribute.

Thank you for visiting our blog recently, that is amazing about your connections with Susan!! She is an amzing artist! It's really a small world after all for sure!! Jenn dnd Jacqui

Michelle said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Your tribute was heartbreaking and beautiful. I hope you have found some healing through writing and in your memories.

Cutzi said...

Thank you for your post. Best friends are a true blessing. I know I, for one, will think of you and treasure my best friend and the time I have with her even more now.

Martha said...

Oh Lisa.

That is so sad. Like Cutzi, I will treasure my friends (like you!) and reach out to them today.

So sorry for your loss.

big hug for you....

Martha

Jen@The Cottage Nest said...

What a wonderful and loving friend you are Lisa. I'm so sorry you lost someone that meant so much to you.

Mrs. G. said...

What a beautiful tribute to a much loved friend. We should all be so lucky to have one of these kinds of heartfriends in our lives. I'm sorry you lost her.

Mrs. Jones said...

I'm so sorry you lost your friend and the babies lost their momma. That's just not fair.

~Heather

Jill -Forever and Ever House said...

Lisa -I am so sorry. Truly. I have a childhood best friend and I really just couldn't imagine.

lisa said...

That is so sad, I just don't understand it at. Sorry for you, but great post to your best friend.

Bristol said...

Lisa- What a horrible thing, so young. I am so sorry you lost your best friend and cousin. Ilost my dad in April 2007 and the sadness just does not go away.
Bristol

Sabina said...

I was so touched by this post. It made me think of my own best friend and how you never think something like this could or would ever happen. Your tribute to her and the love and loss you feel really resonates.

Sabina ~ barefoot in the orchard

Crafty Chica said...

oh my gosh, that was a lovely dedication to her. i'm so sorry you had to go through that. i just stumbled upon your blog, and this post made my eyes well up with tears. sending you strength, although i know she feels your love eternally...